It's Just A Rainy Day

Yo waz good ya'll, I'm going to a dance my college is having so I'll be acting and ass and looking good in my dress 4sho. Yo I'ma be so fly...lol And I'm getting drunk ass hell afterwards.

what would you do if someone you loved told you to give up everything for them?
what would you do if they said leave everyone and come live with them?
would you cry?
are you confused? or would you want to lay and die?
I'm in a situation of that nature now, and even when I said that I do love them but refuse to give up school and my trade to get a good job and a better life they seem like they don't understand.

Let's just say my heart got broken and I've been crying for @ least a week, I've been depressed for at least a month, I'm not going home from school for the weekend, I want to just sleep and take a bottle of Nyquil.

I don't understand but when I read the paragraphs about it, it said I was pretty high, I was higher than average as well.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.5
Mind:	5.5
Body:	6.3
Spirit:	5.8
Friends/Family:	5.3
Love:	5.7
Finance:	7.9
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I feel my flesh ripping and getting torn between teeth
hungry for my blood
I feel him sink his teeth in and I want to explode
It feels so good the mystery of it all
engaging in such pleasure with the unknown
He takes me deeper
deeper into the dark as I begin to black out
Pain surging through my body and me feeling liek my lights are going out
I blink once
then twice
then again for good measure
trying to see the face of my killer before I plunge into hell
It's...it's...It cannot be
It's as if God has made another me,
She who I thought He is looking right at me
Blood dripping from her fangs
me laying on the floor gasping for breath that I cannot reach cause she has slit my wind pipe so I dare not scream
but in horror I do
I MUST
I'm seeing myself as something I didn't think I would become
A vampric soul awaiting a new arrival
I drink their blood and have no remorse
I am DarknessProvail and I WILL PROVAIL.

With a heart as black as mine and created out of stone nothing can break it unless you have the purest soul, so help me if you can...*laughs* or if you dare,I promise not to bite not even a little, rip me from the hands of the Devil so I CAN BE SAVED! Release me.


Oh and for everyone who reads this please don't read to much into it. I write dark poetry but I DO NOT DRINK BLOOD, NOR SHALL I.

~*~DaRkNeSsPrOvAil~*~

I made a big change last night...
I permed my hair which of course somthing I've been doing but I did something bigger and better to make me feel good. I dyed my hair in a permanant blazing burgendy. It's so vibrant and pretty, I got guys turing left and right looking...lol even tha females that like me too. I'm getting a lot of comliments as well. This is my first time ever dying my hair and for it to turn out so good I'm so happy. Yep, I look good, I can't wait to go home and show my family when I come home from school on the 17th of this month. Ooooo It's so pretty.

Ya'll see that tat up in tha corner for my userpic I'm getting it tatted on either my neck or my lower back it's so cute. lol I might not I think i'll hurt, but not as bad as my tonguering.

A dark kiss has been placed upon my lips
as it passes it has brought great nothing into my world
I thought this happening was sort of weird because the person that
kissed me was never seen
I open my eyes and I am startled with fright cause no one was in the room with me that night
I am confused yet all the same bewildered cause I don't know where such things have come from
this dark kiss that touched me like this

I'm shaken up even more now
I wipe my eyes cause their getting clouded
and to my surprise it's blood I see
dripping from my eyelids as if cut by thee
I'm screaming in agony searching for someone to help
My screams are growing louder as I'm shaking at the bloody tears
Tears that never cease but awakens all my bloody fears.

How do you tell someone you truely care about it's over because you've feel in love with someone else that's not of a diffrent sex but the same sex as you?

Someone asked me that yesterday and I'm at wit's in for real.

I know what to say but in a way I don't want to tell the person because were all friends and the person she wants to break up with will be so hurt, Drastically I might add.

I'm stuck in a triangle I don't belong in.